Category Archives: Anxiety

Semantics

Is your understanding of the word depression the same as mine? And how can we ever know? Continue reading

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A life in the day of bipolar mixed mood

It would be so nice if being hypomanic and depressed at the same time meant that they cancelled each other out, if the high would make peace with the low so you could find a place in the middle. Instead they antagonise each other, taking it in … Continue reading

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What she was thinking of

  I know I want to jump. I don’t know if I want to die. I feel compelled. I think I might need to be in hospital. I think there might be nothing wrong with me. I am out of Home Treatment for only 8 days before … Continue reading

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Look Mum, no antipsychotics!

On (re)diagnosis in 2011 I was recommended quetiapine, but also asked to consider lamotrigene. I was given the chance to go away and read the leaflets and come back the following week, but I wanted to get started. Also my … Continue reading

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Not back on track

***TRIGGER WARNING SUICIDE*** Uh-oh. My rate of blogging is always a sign I could be unwell and here we are, two in two days. I mentioned medication change and aripiprazole (brand name Abilify) almost in passing yesterday. Truth is, I was using … Continue reading

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Unpinned

It is not always a bad thing to be pinned down. Rather like a tent, I need underpinnings in order to be who I want to be, to feel like me. I can’t erect the life I want unless some fundamentals … Continue reading

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Prankxiety

Oh anxiety, you trickster, you joker, you fiddler with minds. Anxiety is all over me at the moment. There are probable reasons for this; I’m on a therapeutic dose of aripiprazole, which is well known for causing agitation and  anxiety, and I … Continue reading

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