Tag Archives: Bipolar affective disorder

A life in the day of bipolar mixed mood

It would be so nice if being hypomanic and depressed at the same time meant that they cancelled each other out, if the high would make peace with the low so you could find a place in the middle. Instead they antagonise each other, taking it in … Continue reading

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Who cares?

I’m wobbly and I should be doing the things that might keep me back on track – so why don’t I care? Continue reading

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A disappointment

I had thought I was doing so well… Continue reading

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Cracked

**TW: suicide, including methods** “How are you doing?” people have been asking. My husband. My friends. My parents. My therapist. The Home Treatment Team nurses. “Good!” I’ve been replying. “I’m doing well. I feel much better than I have done … Continue reading

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Not back on track

***TRIGGER WARNING SUICIDE*** Uh-oh. My rate of blogging is always a sign I could be unwell and here we are, two in two days. I mentioned medication change and aripiprazole (brand name Abilify) almost in passing yesterday. Truth is, I was using … Continue reading

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Prankxiety

Oh anxiety, you trickster, you joker, you fiddler with minds. Anxiety is all over me at the moment. There are probable reasons for this; I’m on a therapeutic dose of aripiprazole, which is well known for causing agitation and  anxiety, and I … Continue reading

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The Shame

I have never been ashamed of being bipolar, of having a mental health condition of any kind. I’m not responsible for my genes, my childhood, it’s nothing anyone would choose. I am so unashamed that the recent hashtag #imnotashamed caught … Continue reading

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NHS cogwheels: why should I have to grease them?

There are oodles of definitions of person-centred, or patient-centred, care – sometimes it can feel like people/organisations reinvent what they mean by these terms every time they start a new project or initiative. I’ll tell you what I mean by it: … Continue reading

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Ward and world

This isn’t going to be the most fascinating post ever, but I need to just bring the blog up to speed – especially as the last two posts may have probably seemed pretty alarming. I’m OK. Is the bottom line. My … Continue reading

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The impatient inpatient

For the benefit of those who aren’t on Twitter, I’m currently a patient on a psychiatric ward for the first time in my life. Although it feels like I’ve been here for years it’s actually only been a week. After … Continue reading

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