Tag Archives: Delusions

Black bags in the night

I haven’t posted in a while. Somehow I find it very hard to blog when I’m doing well, and in fact I have been doing very well since returning from holiday. Four or five weeks of stability! Until this week. … Continue reading

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In two minds

So apparently I am having to live with a dual reality. One is about logic, “facts” and what I “know” to be true (or more accurately what I previously knew to be true). The other is a different sort of … Continue reading

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When you’re strange

I feel strange. I don’t think I’ve been acting particularly oddly so it’s probably not noticeable to most people, but I’ve been having strange experiences that make me feel a stranger to myself. After the Great Banana Skin Episode I … Continue reading

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NEW VLOG! “Like the difference between eating a biscuit and a delicious gateau.”

People often asked me how I know when I am hypomanic. How do I distinguish between normal happiness and something more pathological? It can be a difficult question to answer, especially as everyone’s experience will be a little different. Last … Continue reading

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Back under Their spell

So here I am back dealing with Them. I’ve been almost entirely well now for five months and had honestly started to feel that I was completely in remission. A couple of months ago I reduced my dose of quetiapine … Continue reading

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I was wrong

I’m not tremendously good at admitting when I’m wrong – indeed, my partner would be overwhelmed with amusement at the suggestion I do it at all. But I’m admitting it now: I was wrong, dead wrong, about being in recovery. … Continue reading

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The dopamine delusion: why I think there’s more to it than brain chemistry

So, a few months ago I was sitting in my psychiatrist’s office, telling him about THEM. I was crying a bit, although not as much at the urgent GP appointment two days previously. That was before I’d put my antipsychotics … Continue reading

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Through the Looking Glass

“Alice began to remember that she was a Pawn, and that it would soon be time for her to move.” Lewis Carroll Through the Looking Glass, and What Alice Found There  Last week, I was hypomanic. I knew it, I felt … Continue reading

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Psychotic: what’s in a name?

On BBC1’s One Show Alex Jones recently aired a 2009 quote from Danny Boyle. To be a film-maker, according to Boyle, “you have to be psychotic in your desire to do something.” Around the same time, Caitlin Moran tweeted about … Continue reading

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The mad, mad, mad, mad world of politics. Except… it’s not.

On Friday and Saturday there was a lot of derision and scorn in my Twitter feed regarding the Prime Minister’s statement that, “just as our language and culture is steeped in the Bible, so too is our politics.” A huge … Continue reading

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