Tag Archives: Paranoia

Me me me

Posted on April 23, 2017 by purplepersuasion

Dullness warning: I am going to assume you’re at risk of boredom here, not just because I have already posted twice in a week, but also because this is going to one of those posts that’s using writing as therapy in attempt … Continue reading →

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Mixed mood

Posted on December 6, 2016 by purplepersuasion

I can’t think of a snappier title for this blog, because mixed mood is where I am at and my brain feels scrambled. For four weeks now my functioning has been disturbed, my mood fluctuating but not actually euthymic (normal) at any … Continue reading →

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When you’re strange

Posted on May 19, 2015 by purplepersuasion

I feel strange. I don’t think I’ve been acting particularly oddly so it’s probably not noticeable to most people, but I’ve been having strange experiences that make me feel a stranger to myself. After the Great Banana Skin Episode I … Continue reading →

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Where the damage is done

Posted on April 2, 2015 by purplepersuasion

So much has happened to me since I last wrote a personal post that I find it difficult to link this one to the one before. Filling you in by writing it down now will diminish how very terrible things … Continue reading →

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Back under Their spell

Posted on September 15, 2014 by purplepersuasion

So here I am back dealing with Them. I’ve been almost entirely well now for five months and had honestly started to feel that I was completely in remission. A couple of months ago I reduced my dose of quetiapine … Continue reading →

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I was wrong

Posted on January 23, 2014 by purplepersuasion

I’m not tremendously good at admitting when I’m wrong – indeed, my partner would be overwhelmed with amusement at the suggestion I do it at all. But I’m admitting it now: I was wrong, dead wrong, about being in recovery. … Continue reading →

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The dopamine delusion: why I think there’s more to it than brain chemistry

Posted on January 7, 2014 by purplepersuasion

So, a few months ago I was sitting in my psychiatrist’s office, telling him about THEM. I was crying a bit, although not as much at the urgent GP appointment two days previously. That was before I’d put my antipsychotics … Continue reading →

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Through the Looking Glass

Posted on October 16, 2013 by purplepersuasion

“Alice began to remember that she was a Pawn, and that it would soon be time for her to move.” Lewis Carroll Through the Looking Glass, and What Alice Found There  Last week, I was hypomanic. I knew it, I felt … Continue reading →

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Psychotic: what’s in a name?

Posted on April 9, 2013 by purplepersuasion

On BBC1’s One Show Alex Jones recently aired a 2009 quote from Danny Boyle. To be a film-maker, according to Boyle, “you have to be psychotic in your desire to do something.” Around the same time, Caitlin Moran tweeted about … Continue reading →

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I don’t look crazy, I don’t look sad

Posted on May 2, 2012 by purplepersuasion

Seeing me at the family party, you probably think I am fine. I arrive on time with my partner and children, bearing the promised contributions to the refreshments. You see me doing the rounds of hugging, kissing, asking questions, quickly … Continue reading →

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