Tag Archives: Paranoia

Mixed mood

I can’t think of a snappier title for this blog, because mixed mood is where I am at and my brain feels scrambled. For four weeks now my functioning has been disturbed, my mood fluctuating but not actually euthymic (normal) at any … Continue reading

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When you’re strange

I feel strange. I don’t think I’ve been acting particularly oddly so it’s probably not noticeable to most people, but I’ve been having strange experiences that make me feel a stranger to myself. After the Great Banana Skin Episode I … Continue reading

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Where the damage is done

So much has happened to me since I last wrote a personal post that I find it difficult to link this one to the one before. Filling you in by writing it down now will diminish how very terrible things … Continue reading

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Back under Their spell

So here I am back dealing with Them. I’ve been almost entirely well now for five months and had honestly started to feel that I was completely in remission. A couple of months ago I reduced my dose of quetiapine … Continue reading

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I was wrong

I’m not tremendously good at admitting when I’m wrong – indeed, my partner would be overwhelmed with amusement at the suggestion I do it at all. But I’m admitting it now: I was wrong, dead wrong, about being in recovery. … Continue reading

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The dopamine delusion: why I think there’s more to it than brain chemistry

So, a few months ago I was sitting in my psychiatrist’s office, telling him about THEM. I was crying a bit, although not as much at the urgent GP appointment two days previously. That was before I’d put my antipsychotics … Continue reading

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Through the Looking Glass

“Alice began to remember that she was a Pawn, and that it would soon be time for her to move.” Lewis Carroll Through the Looking Glass, and What Alice Found There  Last week, I was hypomanic. I knew it, I felt … Continue reading

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