Tag Archives: Psychosis

Me me me

Dullness warning: I am going to assume you’re at risk of boredom here, not just because I have already posted twice in a week, but also because this is going to one of those posts that’s using writing as therapy in attempt … Continue reading

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Black bags in the night

I haven’t posted in a while. Somehow I find it very hard to blog when I’m doing well, and in fact I have been doing very well since returning from holiday. Four or five weeks of stability! Until this week. … Continue reading

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She took to her bed: safe spaces and danger zones

Today I have been trying to explain to my Consultant that I feel that there are a number of zones in which They have more chance to get at me, where their power is stronger. Places like what I am … Continue reading

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In two minds

So apparently I am having to live with a dual reality. One is about logic, “facts” and what I “know” to be true (or more accurately what I previously knew to be true). The other is a different sort of … Continue reading

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When you’re strange

I feel strange. I don’t think I’ve been acting particularly oddly so it’s probably not noticeable to most people, but I’ve been having strange experiences that make me feel a stranger to myself. After the Great Banana Skin Episode I … Continue reading

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NEW VLOG! “Like the difference between eating a biscuit and a delicious gateau.”

People often asked me how I know when I am hypomanic. How do I distinguish between normal happiness and something more pathological? It can be a difficult question to answer, especially as everyone’s experience will be a little different. Last … Continue reading

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Back under Their spell

So here I am back dealing with Them. I’ve been almost entirely well now for five months and had honestly started to feel that I was completely in remission. A couple of months ago I reduced my dose of quetiapine … Continue reading

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The medium is the message: delivering Mental Health First Aid training

Over the past couple of months I have devoted considerable time to becoming a trained Mental Health First Aid instructor. It’s something my friend Jon Bartlett (@Projectlibero) and I decided to take on together, and I’m proud to say that … Continue reading

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The dopamine delusion: why I think there’s more to it than brain chemistry

So, a few months ago I was sitting in my psychiatrist’s office, telling him about THEM. I was crying a bit, although not as much at the urgent GP appointment two days previously. That was before I’d put my antipsychotics … Continue reading

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Through the Looking Glass

“Alice began to remember that she was a Pawn, and that it would soon be time for her to move.” Lewis Carroll Through the Looking Glass, and What Alice Found There  Last week, I was hypomanic. I knew it, I felt … Continue reading

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