Tag Archives: Suicidality

Revolving door

Posted on June 14, 2018 by purplepersuasion

TW: references to suicide methods I remember the first time I was in hospital I was sitting on the floor chatting with my friend Phil, when he spotted somebody he recalled from a previous admission. “There’s Paul!” he said, looking … Continue reading →

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Trigger, no warning

Posted on May 26, 2018 by purplepersuasion

I feel ambivalent about using the term “triggered” regarding my mental health. It comes from the language around Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) and refers to being tripped into a flashback, intrusive thoughts or feelings of distress by some external … Continue reading →

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Choose your own misadventure

Posted on July 20, 2016 by purplepersuasion

**TW: suicide, including methods** I’m aware that misadventure isn’t the correct terms here; it means something that happens to befall you. The things that might befall me aren’t happenstance, or bad luck, but what else can I say? Am I … Continue reading →

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Mood crash investigation

Posted on December 18, 2015 by purplepersuasion

Trigger warning: suicidal thoughts, suicide planning, railway suicide Tom is a great fan of air crash investigation programmes. He takes pride in knowing exactly which seats to choose to maximise our chances in the unlikely event of a crash. (I … Continue reading →

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Enough of us both

Posted on February 26, 2015 by purplepersuasion

TW: suicidal thoughts and planning On Monday afternoon I sat in a glass-walled consulting room with my Consultant psychiatrist. Out in the waiting room I had felt so weary, sick to the back teeth of coming to this building over … Continue reading →

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999: Is your emergency deserving enough?

Posted on January 1, 2015 by purplepersuasion

[Content note: A&E for mental health crisis, poor care experiences, suicidal thoughts, self-harm] The strain felt by A&E departments as we move into winter has been much in the news. Today the Guardian pronounces the whole A&E system to be … Continue reading →

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What have I done?

Posted on October 24, 2014 by purplepersuasion

***MORE BIG TRIGGER WARNINGS FOR SUICIDE, INCLUDING METHODS*** Yesterday I forced myself to be more honest than I have ever been about my suicidality. I told the Home Treatment Team Consultant, the team Registrar and my partner Tom everything I … Continue reading →

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An impossible ask

Posted on October 21, 2014 by purplepersuasion

I’m going to start with a massive TRIGGER WARNING. This post contains numerous references to suicidal thoughts and descriptions of methods, as well as intrusive thoughts of self-harm. Please don’t read on if this could be damaging to you. After … Continue reading →

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The slow beat of the steady drum

Posted on October 16, 2014 by purplepersuasion

[TW: Self harm and suicide] I hardly know what to say, how to articulate myself. The truth is I haven’t really been well since 1st September when I reduced my quetiapine from 600mg-500mg under Consultant supervision. It only took a … Continue reading →

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On seeking help

Posted on August 12, 2014 by purplepersuasion

At twelve, I had a problem. Something was wrong with me. Something had descended upon me, out of the blue summer sky. In an instant I felt dreadful, weighed down, sick with something I couldn’t identify, that I felt in … Continue reading →

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